Sweet Olivia

Olivia, you have been on my mind a lot today. Our day started off very rocky. It was school picture day therefore your hair should not be in a ponytail! I started braiding your hair and then you wanted it pulled back...in a ponytail! We totally misunderstood each other. It snowballed from there. You left the house in tears, from a spanking, and your hair was In a ponytail. Two seconds when you were out the door, my heart started aching. I hate fighting with you! Our personalities have always been oil and water, but it still hurts. I decided to get dressed and go to the school. I had to give Hallie Beth medicine so I figured it was the perfect excuse to see you. I just wanted to give you a hug,tell you I'm sorry and that I love you. (I also fixed your hair!) while hugging you I notice you pull away and look over at your classmates. Are you really at that age to where you're embarrassed to see me and give me hugs? Second stab to the heart in one day. I tried not to take it personally, but it's just another sign you are growing up. I just hope that while you are doing all this growing, you never forget how much I love you. We fight like cats and dogs and I know I should be the adult, but I also don't want to ever change who you are. We are so different, but I just want to guide you through life. Help you make discoveries, decisions, and learn life lessons as Olivia. I know we don't like the same things, which is why we fight. We don't understand each other, but we still love each other. Love will conquer all and that is the most important thing. I never want you to have a complex of the sincerity of my love. You will ALWAYS be good enough for me. You may not work to your potential, or even care about your potential. That's what a mom is for to show you the dos and don'ts and the right way and wrong way. It may not be Olivia's way, but it's the way of the world.

I love you Olivia!

Xoxo, Mama